It's been pretty sometime that I've updated this site. So yea, since I am free right now, I just do some update. I am currently at work and it's been one whole month that I am with my attachment company. Work wise, been great but I really learn beyond what others can learn. I learn how badly the employees are treated and that how they suffered due to much inferiority complex and fear of losing their rice bowl.

Oh well, this is an eye opener and I hope that next time I will not be stuck under such a company. If I am, I will try to make things better.

Currently I am lazing around and I am having such excitement twittering on twitter.com. Plus I could not get off facebook too, I just wish I could play bejeweled now! Hahaz. I am so addicted to it.

Till then, 2 more weeks to go and school, here I come!

Hmm,dearest ain't feeling too good today I guess. Oh well. I didn't get to see him today. I know I don't know how to comfort a person. But I know I tried. Yes he told me that I didn't understand. Well it's okie. I just thought maybe tonight after I've done all my work, I would give him a call and try to comfort him again.

But just so you know, while I was writing the first sentence of this entry, I receive a sms from him. He was sorry that he told me off earlier on. Well I didn't think that he was telling me of, I just understood that he was feeling really down. But he felt that he actually scolded me, though I was trying to comfort him. I feel so much relieved after receiving that sms. I was just worried sick of how he would be feeling. And I can't stop thinking of that while I was trying to do my work.

Thanks dear for telling me so. Just want you to know, that I am here to listen to your worries. I know I ain't a good companion that knows how to win your heart or comfort you till you feel okay again, but I want you to know that despite so, I am here for you, though you may not be able to see it. I am always here, in your heart.

[Gabriella]
Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine,
And let the music be your guide.

[Troy, Gabriella]
Won't you promise me (now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
We'll keep dancing (to keep dancing) wherever we go next

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

[Troy]
Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you threw it all

[Troy, Gabriella]
And you can't keep us apart (even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart)
'Cause my heart is (cause my heart is) wherever you are

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

[Gabriella And Troy]
Oh no mountains too high enough, oceans too wide
'Cause together or not, our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you (like you)
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do (way we do)
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

I am so sad right now. I got to use cable for my internet!! I don't like cable. Why I got to use cable? Oh cause I reformat my computer. With the help of someonnneeeee who is right beside me now. And he was so evil to watch my video without my permission. AND LAUGH AT ME LA! What the hell. That video of me and my friends was so unglam la. Haiz. Nvm. Now he knows it already. Don't like him!

But anyway, don't look at me dear. Keep on working on the com. Haha. LOL. By the way, thanks for helping me reformating my com. Thank god I got an IT SAVVY boyfriend right? Haha. If not, I think my com will forever be slow. Lol. Love you.

It's raining heavily right now. And we are still stuck in school. I wonder how I am going to get back home. Haha. But it's sheltered all the way la, so I guess it shouldn't be a problem. Are u sending me back home today??? Hehe. Lol. Nevermind la if you're tired, it's okay I can go home myself. Lol. Haha.

But anyway, oh ya, it's been long time since I've update how's life. Remember the last post was about all the SADDD stuff. Yah. But soon after that, after much roller coaster ride and dramas of life, we're doing great now, I think even better right? Lol. Haha. See someone leaning on my shoulder already. Yea. Things been better, although it was just a week or two. He always say, "Everytime I meet you, I feel that our relationship is fresh" Yea. Haha. Yupz.

So don't stress with my com ok dear. Haha.

Oh well, I really hope things would be better this time. I do hope that we won't be battling against each other anymore. It was really taxing moment, on the verge of losing someone, I thought I would not been spending anymore time with YOU. Lol. But yah, it's all my fault. Hahha. Like I said previously, I bring it upon myself right? Haha

But you know what, let's hope for the best for us. I guess, this is all blessings in disguise. I love you.

I can't believe I'm in this phase of life again. Yes. AGAIN. Oh well, everyone of course would say I bring this upon myself. Even my mum said so.

The entry below is a contradict. I don't think we continued on from there.
I am helpless. I am the one who initiated all this. If not, it won't be this way I guess. See, again it's me.

It's all about choices. Nobody or no one else triggered me to do so. I guess it's all about me.

I am as good as being alone. =/

Yups, its a tribute entry to our favourite numbers. 3 + 3 = 6. It's been 6 months together, it has been great through all kinds of roller coaster ride of emotions. I've been enjoying this journey this far, and I really hope there's more to come. I belive in you and me, and most of all, I believe in us.

I love you.

I hung up
The phone last night
Something happened
For the first time
Deep inside
It was a rush
What a rush
Cause the possibility
That you would ever
Feel the same way
About me
It's just too much
Just too much
Why do I keep running
From the truth
All I ever think
About is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I just got to kno

Do you ever think
When your all alone
All that we can be
Where this can go
Am I crazy
Or falling in love
Is it really
Just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
But I know this crush
Ain't goin' away

Has it ever cross
Your mind
When were hangin'
Spending time girl
Are we just friends
Is there more
Is there more
See it's a chance
We've gotta take
Cause I believe
That we can
Make this into
Something
That will last
Last forever
Forever

Do you ever think
When your all alone
All that we can be
Where this can go
Am I crazy
Or falling in love
Is it really just
Aanother crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
But I know this crush
Ain't goin' away

Why do I keep running
From the truth
All I ever think
About is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think
When your all alone
All that we can be
Where this can go
Am I crazy
Or falling in love
Is it really just
Another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
But I know this crush
Ain't goin' away

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Scooch closer dear
and i will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
My breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what i be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
this is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find the sky is yours
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
A l%ufffd one big family (2nd time: A l%ufffd happy family; 3rd time: A l%ufffd peaceful melody)
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No please, don't complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No please, don't hesitate
no more, no more
It cannot wait
The sky is your's!

Yes, practically, I'm having major mood swings. And I really don't know why. I feel such a jerk now cause I was like whinning on the phone with Odie and all. At first, I was shouting at him, talking about what we talked a few days ago, I don't know why suddenly I blurted out everything. Then shortly after reading his email, yes I suddenly turned weird. 
I don't know why also. I figure I'm having major mood swings. Those I used to have when I was in secondary school. When I just get pissed by people around me, though they done nothing wrong. 

My dearest was hospitalised for 3 days. His arm was swollen badly and had to go through minor operation. Seriously, I feel like sad and all, kept thinking about how he is and everything. Visited him yesterday with a bunch of friends, and I'm glad that we made his day. I just want him to feel good.  It's like the last time we went out together was like last wednesday, and then we didn't see each other, intending to study and everything. Then I fall sick, I recovered, and he went to hospital. It's so sad that he could not take his tests and everything. Haiz. I'm sure there's a reason for everything ok. Whatever happens, you are strong enough to face all this. And I still love you no matter wad. 

Ok I've been studying much today. I realised that I almost completed all modules. I need to do like hardcore memory work. Hopefully everything will get into my head just in time for my tests. All these tests are really bothering me hard. Haiz.

There's really lots to think about la. I don't know if I should think about it or not. I don't know. Yes, I don't know. 

And I just miss him. I miss everything about him. I just wish things will get better for him as soon as possible. And that things will all be okay again for us. 

 

Do you hear me
talking to you
Across the water
Across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky
Oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you, I promise you I will

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through the trees
Move so pretty, you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohhohhohhohh

So while I'm turning in my sheets
And once again I cannot sleep
Walk out the door and up the street
Look at the stars beneath my feet
Remember rights that I did wrong
So here I go

Hello, hello

There is no place I cannot go
My mind is muddy but
My heart is heavy does it show
I lose the track that loses me
So here I go

Uhuh uhuh uhuh

And so I sent some men to fight
And one came back at dead of night
Said he'd seen my enemy
Said he looked just like me
So I set out to cut myself
And here I go

Uhuh uhuh uhuh

I'm not calling for a second chance
I'm screaming at the top of my voice
Give me reason, but don't give me choice
Cause I'll just make the same mistake again

Uhuh uhuh uhuh

And maybe someday we will face
And maybe talk but not just speak
Dont buy the promises cause
There are no promises I keep
And my reflection troubles me
So here I go

Uhuh uhuh uhuh

I'm not calling for a second chance
I'm screaming at the top of my voice
Give me reason, but don't give me choice
Cause I'll just make the same mistake

I'm not calling for a second chance
I'm screaming at the top of my voice
Give me reason, but don't give me choice
Cause I'll just make the same mistake again

Uhuh uhuh uhuh

Uhuh uhuh uhuh
So while I'm turning in my sheets
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
And once again I cannot sleep
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
Walk out the door and up the street
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
Look at the stars
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
Look at the stars falling down
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
And I wonder where
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
Did I go wrong?

Ok, as the title suggests, I think my mood is swinging. Haha. Yes having that period of the month. But anyway, I am glad I ain't involve in much activities these days [or no activities at all -_-] and so, it won't affect anyone much. 

But of course when it doesnt affect anyone, there is that other person that it will affect. MYSELF. Yes. Why? Cause I've been thinking and thinking and thinking and sometimes I just think of a lot of things until in the end, I don't know what I was thinking about. 

Moving on, I've been listening to all my new songs. Yes, I've not been updating myself on songs, and finally I did, so I am like happy. Haha. Lame me. Then what else have I been doing, oh ya I've been sleeping and eating and watching tv and just getting fat. Can someone drag me out of the house for a jog?

Anyway all these activities made me save my precious money. Haha. Going out less means less spending. But once I go out, all the money will be gone. Like what the hell! Urgh! Super irritating. 

Ok, I miss my best friend. Frankly. She seems so busy when I am not busy at all. I miss the last min meet ups and all. She is busy one thing and she having a boyfriend is one thing. Two things that make me decide not to disturb her at all. Not that I don't care friend. I just feel that I've not been telling you enough cause I am missing you! Hahaha Anyway don't stress out too much. And don't forget that I am here. [Although I just miss her performance today. Naughty me!]

An old friend ring me up yesterday night and we talked for an hour or so. That friend is turning 21, and is still not been focusing on life. Goodness. Start thinking about life can? But anyway, I'm glad I talked to him and I told him 'I seriously have no idea what you are up all these while' Yea seriously man. Its been a year, and suddenly people just ring you up. It's weird. But hey, Im glad we talked. Though I seriously didn't wanna entertain you at all. 

And so Inez whispered in my ear yesterday, asking me how I feel seeing my ex-boyfriend. I said, I feel pretty normal. I've been talking to him normally, it's not like we ignore each other. But I do feel that he feels weird being around with me there. Oh well, no big deal. 

There's so many things to tell. I don't even know what else. Ok mummy decided to hold my 18th bdae party this year at a chalet. So once again, I didn't ask for it. She wanted to do, since she say the brother in law is super excited about it all. Hahakz. Whatever. But I am excited that I am having my own 18th bdae party =) It's still a long way. 

Ok, tuition tomorrow and meetings the next day. Weekends, I won't be going for gp prep. Sorry arh. Not interested. 

Oh well, that's well. 

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It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
I%u2019ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep
[Nothing Lasts Forever lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]


If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Though we have not hit the ground
Doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes you so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

I'm bored right now and I'm missing my Sentosa Flowers Peepz!! Urgh. I wish there is work, anything, but again I'm too lazy to go search for one.
Anyway, FOWA com t-shirt is driving me nuts. Tell me peepz, who wanna pay a t shirt for 28 bucks? Anyone? I bet all the com ppl will scream at me. But then, another alternative is the 12 bucks one? Which I don't think will turn out very nice. How? I am lazy to source for anymore suppliers. Tell me people. HOW?

Ok I'm super duper bored. I wanted to wake up and run but oh well, I'm just a pig. I slept till 2pm ok. I was shocked myself. Hahakz. But yea, so I pigged today, wake up, eat, watch tv and now online. Haiz. Pigging days are here!

So pic of the day. =) I miss these people.

  

Let's give this place a little live. Let's see what is there to update? Nothing much, except that PACC exam is on monday and guess what time it is. It would be at 6pm till 7.40PM. No kidding alright. My exam is in the evening. So on the lighter note, there's no worry about being late. But do keep track with the time. Go to school instead of havoc-ing. Haha. Ok anyway today the plan is to study out, but what do you know, I'm such a pig, so just forget it. Anyway Pras msg me and told me that she couldn't make it too, so vioala! There you go

Ok more updates at wordpress yea?

Here's a random pic



Anyway Shah said I look very lady-like in this picture and its perfect. You think so?

Ok let's see. Why am I at Live Journal now? Cause of Andre. Hahakz. I had to sign up to read his entries. So basically this journal is not going to be of any use, unless I'm bored of wordpress. But I still prefer wordpress!

So I've owned like almost everything, from BLOG to MULTIPLY to BLOG again and to WORDPRESS now to LIVE JOURNAL! hahahkz. Chiaoz